Monday, September 30, 2019

Day 357


Just in case you were wondering what Stage One T1CN0 triple negative invasive ductal carcinoma of the left breast with a Ki-67 of 40% will set you back*.  That's $34,717 and change per word of my diagnosis.  Hard to tell if I'm getting a deal here...

To scale this (and also maybe a little bit of a cry out in anger and frustration on my part), I would encourage you to follow a few hashtags such as #triplenegativebreastcancer or #tnbc and see how many women, especially young women (like in their 20's and 30's) are being diagnosed with this special brand of cancer that by the way, gets a very small piece of the cancer research pie and yet has the highest recurrence rate and highest mortality rate of all breast cancers.  

Anyway, do the math and multiply that by the thousands and you get my point.  Someone's getting rich and it's definitely not me. 


0/10 stars.

Do not recommend.

*so far

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Day 352

Here come the Cancerversaries...

I was planning on making a general post today since I haven't been here for, like, ever, when I realized I am coming up on a bunch of milestones.  I have been so busy lately that I almost missed it.  That thought almost makes me smile - like the ghost in the room is less conspicuous today.  But alas I remembered that one year ago today was the day I had my annual mammogram.  How crazy is that?  I never in a million years thought that one year later my life would look how it does now and all the good and the bad, and sometimes ugly, that would come to pass.  I will reflect more later, but I am not a huge fan of living in the past, so I may just, not.  

Here's the latest and the greatest on what I've been up to.

I have been traveling a ton in my new role.  Which, I LOVE!  I will never get tired of it.  I  can't express to you how amazing the people I work with are, everywhere I go (although whilst visiting our Reno branch, I realized I have a real stripe problem...... )  I am in Dallas as we speak at our home office and having a blast.  When in Dallas, go to Punch Bowl Social.  It's so cool!

And, I am happy to say, my chemo finally arrived at my door with the freaking respect it deserves.  I mean the UPS guy was not in a full hazmat suit but this was definitely way more of the spectacle I had envisioned.   


The boys are now seniors and turned 17 last month and Jess is a freshman.  Not sure how that all happened so dang fast!  Michael is working at Mark's on the Channel now, so go by and support a local business and say hey!  He brings home food and although he has yet to share, I can assure you he is eating like a king.  David I am sure is working diligently, yet silently, on finding a job as well.  So, three high schoolers and the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter.  I mean I love them and all and I would jump in front of a train for them without hesitation, but I am pretty ready for liftoff. 

And in my efforts to promote wellness and awareness, I saw a soap box and ran all the way over to it and got right up on it this past weekend.  It didn't really happen like that but it doesn't really matter the "how".  I can tell you about the "why" though.  I will use every opportunity to talk about my favorite charity, wellness, cancer, taking the fear out of knowing if something is wrong and fighting the "ignorance is bliss mentality", single parenting with cancer, empowering yourself, advocating for yourself, showing up for yourself, inspiring people who are facing adversity, providing perspective, all that good stuff.  If you haven't checked out Michelle's Love, do it.  The link is in "My Links" section of my blog, and you can also find them on your favorite social media platform (not personally loving saying "favorite" and "social media" in the same sentence, but you get the point).

So yeah, I was on the news.   

Here is the link to: KGW
Here is the link to: KATU

I'll say it again, check these videos out to learn more about Michelle's Love and you can see me and the "chemo thirty" talking about something that's something you probably don't think about too much, but can you even imagine what it's like being a single parent with cancer?  Yeah.  It's fucking mind-blowing scary.   I mean having cancer is hard no matter what your relationship status and it's definitely not a contest, but I am sure it's not lost on you.  And seriously, sometimes all I want is someone to snuggle me and tell me it's going to be ok and it's like..... 

I think that's it.  Flying back to PDX tomorrow night and although I am loving hanging with my people in Dallas, I cannot wait to get out of your "5000% humidity feels like 103 degrees at 10 o'clock at night" weather.  Mwah!

Love you all.  Probably talk at you as I roll through some emotional milestones on my journey here very soon.

XOXO and gnite!