Sunday, October 14, 2018

Day 6

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Preparing for the week ahead and the two appointments that I learn exactly what I am up against.  The past week all I have really known for sure is I have a 1.2 cm mass in my left breast and it's cancer.  This week is when the rubber really hits the road.  

I am full of dread to hear the details, yet so eager to finally know and have a plan.  It's an interesting place to be.

It's been almost a week since I've learned that I have cancer and I am still swinging from complete disbelief to an all-encompassing fear.  Do you remember when you would be on the teeter-totter with your friend and, for a laugh, they would jump off and you would come crashing down?  And then just as fast they would jump back on and you would fly up and lift off the seat and you likely would have flown off had you not been holding on?  Yeah, kind of like that.  I get occasional moments of peace and acceptance, and I am sure as I go through this, I will visit that point of balance more often.

So today, I hit the forest, as I try to do every weekend. To reset.  To prepare.  To clear my mind and choke out the fear that is trying to take my breath away.   

I'll leave you with a few of my favorite pics of my 7-mile hike through Forest Park today.  October in Oregon has always been my favorite and today was just about the most perfect day ever. 

I hope you all had an amazing day today and were able to give yourself some grace.  It's important.

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